i'm overjoyed (for lack of a better word!) :) my leg has shown signs of recovery today and i'm finally able to walk, in a sense..normally without attracting the stares by others! although the pain hasnt disappeared completely but i'm sure it will by tmr :) i guess these past 2 weeks have taught me how to cherish more than ever. when i could be free of the extereme muscle cramps, i learn to cherish that very moment. now that i can walk without limping, i cherish all other moments that i need not do so. it's like being very conscious of the very moment i'm living in, and with all the gratitude i can offer. it's so easy to be contented. in fact i find this experience a blessing in disguise. :) afterall, its not permanent and i'll definitely recover. point number 2 being i just lugged back 10 over books from MPH warehouse sale from expo!!! haha and precisely because of my leg condition my dad was kind enough to send me to and fro so i could make use of the chance to grab as many books as i wanted! I BOUGHT 'WILD SWANS' FOR JUST 5 BUCKS?!!? gleaming with joy seriously :))))) seems like it was fated that i couldnt get it at kolkata hahaha! anyway i want to talk about my dad.. he isnt really the expressive kind of dad and he isnt really the kind that is very involved in family matters. he doesnt really know what happens to me in school, what subjects i take, and what cca i am in. neither does he know of my friends and my hobbies..and the list goes on. but he is definitely by 24/7 dad that loves me and shows his love and involvement in another way. he'd make it a point to come and fetch me whenever school activities end late..and that was one reason why i quit geco. i didnt want him to wait till such a late hour every fri after a long day outside. i always sense his weariness. he does not do the 9-5 kind of job in an office, but he drives around the island for appointments and to check on his worksites, and driving can be taxing. for the past week he has been driving me home, arranging his appointments such that he can make it on time when i end lessons..it takes 30minutes to drive from school back home. he drives to bukit timah after his appointment, and drive me back home at this ulu corner of singapore, and drives to his next appointment's destination..no matter how tired he was, he'd always try to fetch me around for fear that i had to walk too much. i remember myself sticking to my dad alot when i was young, and he'd tap me to sleep everynight..but as i grew older, somehow our distance became further..and i was more comfortable with my mum. funny because i used to gang up with my dad all the time when i was young to play pranks on my mum. mummy was always the big bad devil while papa was always the angel who shielded me from all the scoldings and beatings. as i said, this leg experience really got me to see what i didnt use to see.. my dad just expresses his love in a different form. as my mum always says, i'm the one my dad loves most, not her :/ guess its a good time to read 朱自清 的 《背影》 ... | 